calm chaos - on being treated like an adult

Tomorrow is my birthday (um, YAY), which has caused me to consider Where I Am In Life? On the one hand, I am still really excited about my birthday, which makes me think I am pretty young still. But I am also married, and pay my own bills, which feels a bit adult.

In the next month, I will be running some workshops with a prominent Melbourne college on the triumphs and woes of making collage for a living. It has occurred to me that I will considered a grown up by these young minds. It is really alarming. I have spent the last couple of weeks trying to put on paper how I create, and I found these two images that sum up the constant 'calm vs chaos' that I constantly oscillate between.

Hopefully they won't be too scarred by my approach! Until then, I plan to squeal a lot tomorrow over the various birthday coffees I plan on having, as well as embracing my family's outrageous 'Birthday Month' tradition. There are already balloons in my house, the squealing has begun. Watch out kids. I get over excited by a lot of stuff.

Young at heart I suppose!